Where does the time go???? I thought it had been a few weeks since I posted, but it turns out to be a few months. I got so wrapped up in the elections and the transition that I have spent all my time checking the details - hardly leaving time to live. I went from never watching commercial TV or news of any kind to being totally consumed by it. Whatever the average time an American spends watching TV I have dramatically exceeded it.
The end result is that here we are with another year almost gone and what do I have to show for it??? Not that I use this transition from one year to the next to assess my accomplishments or develop a list of resolutions. That activity takes place in relation to my birthday since that is my measure of the time called years.
Now the year I referred to has passed and I am still in quandary about where the time goes. I have referred to my theory before that I have lived multiple lives this time around, in this body, in this dimension. There was the time I spent as a small child, born into a family that did not necessarily want a baby girl in the mix. Then there was the time I spent before becoming a teenager that is just a blur. Most people seem to spend that time becoming who they will be as adults, I just don't remember doing that. I know I spent a lot of time alone, playing games I made up in my head - mostly related to "playing house". The teenage years were sheer hell for me. I can remember my fourteenth birthday very clearly because I hated myself and everyone around me at that time. I never did quite master being "me" during that time, primarily because it did not seem important to me or anyone else that I become a separate entity.
OK, that went too far to the dark side. So I think I'll just end this rant and pick it up at a later time when my frame of mind is better. Bottom line: time is the most precious "thing" you own, use it wisely every minute of every day!!
